Last night I wanted to start working on paper collages again, after not doing for months. But I felt scared from the blank canvas. I always feel a little intimidated by a blank surface, always pristine and full with possibilities, but I enjoy starting something new and then the surface becomes my creation, and I own it.
But last night it felt different, like getting on a bike after tumbling down, or driving after being in a crash. I could not put myself to drawing on the canvas so I covered them with the background papers instead to ease my mind, but that's as far as I go. After not painting for so long I feel like I am never going to be able to paint something again. I know it's just a phase and that it will go away as soon as I dare to draw the first line, but I feel like I haven't got the courage to take the first step.
This is a new feeling for me, I did not fear my canvases before. Have you ever felt like this? How did you over come it?